School is Honestly in Session
Well, the first week of school is over!
For those of you catching up, I have decided to go back to school and finish my degree at Villanova University. I will continue with my major as a Communications student with a concentration in PR and a minor in Classics. This decision came out of many factors, but the main one being that I realized my life is going in a different direction. Instead of trying to force myself onto the path that I wanted, I had to listen to what I needed. What I needed was to be near family long term, continue working, and keeping up with this blog.
Because it is a new year (new me? nah.)
I thought I would start this experience off with being as real as possible.
(This is inspired by a movement called #honestyhour on Instagram. Check out my IG @marissa.baum to learn more.)
Many of you have commented that you feel I am living this "dream life." Let's talk about that for a second.
I am loving my life right now, but that does not mean it is easy. It's hard. No matter what anyone sees on social media, these past few months have been exhausting. Everyday I struggle. Mentally, spiritually, and physically. I have pushed myself in ways I never thought possible. I have gone to places that are totally new and, and I have felt lost almost the entire way. Being at a new school is challenging, but exciting. Working while going to school is stressful, but also ridiculously rewarding. Starting and keeping up with a blog has sent my life in a totally new direction I never could have dreamed of.
Through all of this though, it is important to remember that all you see on social media are simply snapshots of me and my life. I have tried consciously to paint a picture that is very realistic, but I'm not a reality show. Social media can never fully capture my true self, 100% of the time, and honestly I don't want it to. I do not live my life online, contrary to what many people may believe. I am out experiencing life, social media is just another way I connect to others and help others connect with themselves.
What you don't see on social media are the times I wonder if I am making the right decision to return to school, or me questioning myself if I am ready or capable for the opportunities coming my way. Because whether I want to believe/accept it or not, there are many.
While you may see me in new places, cheering on a new team, with new friends... you don't see me getting lost every time I walk out of my new apartment. Or the nervousness I feel about handling a more rigorous workload. You don't see how much I miss being around the familiar. You don't see the solo pump-up dance parties to Drake that I do before class. You don't see me driving home flustured because I accidentally sent my Amazon textbooks to my home address. I mess up. I'm wildly uncomfortable. But, I'm growing, I'm learning, and at the end of the day all I can do is be proud of where I've been, and look forward to where I'm going (and maybe have a cold beer at the end of the day.)
So, I encourage you all to do the same and live every day as honest to yourself as possible. Class dismissed.